You decide to hit the snooze button one too many times that when you do get up, you are running around like a chicken with its head cut off rushing to get to work.
You step on what you think is dried up white paint, and you slip on it because it's actually some slimy unknown substance someone decided to dump on the floor.
You are driving to work and get stuck behind a stupid person driving 10 mph below the speed limit.
While you are behind said bad driver, there's nothing good on the radio but a compilation of the songs you hate the most.
You are a nervous wreck because late Friday, you told off a coworker because they pissed you off and now fear the repercussions.
Last, but not least (especially for a gay man), because you were running late this morning, you picked the worst possible color combination of slacks and shirt that it looks like you dressed in the dark.
...for having such a boring life that if I were to blog about it, it will put you all in a deep coma.
Seriously. Nothing happens to me.
Well, almost nothing. I mean, I did get a new b.f. who's moving in with me in 2 months and I did get multiple sclerosis, from somewhere, probably from touching my "no no" parts too much.
But other than that, nothing happens to me every day for me to rush home and blog about it. Not even witty things have been crossing my mind lately. I'm just here. Numb. Going through the motions of life.
I could tell you about how I am reconciling accounts at work (since I'm an Accountant and all), and how I rarely get visitors in my office since all I do is count beans all day long. Which I love! I knew I wanted to be an Accountant since I was a little kid. While all the kids are playing with toys, I was trying to gather a few friends to play "office". Yes....you heard right...play "office". Sad but true.
Anywho....I better stop before I put you all to sleep.
I'm just here, happy, waiting for Brian (Mr. Brian as I like to call him) to move out here so we can be an old married couple. It's all downhill after 28 folks. I shall now go to the grandma store and buy myself a shawl to wear over my shoulders. Shit....buy?! I'll just buy yarn to make myself one!
I'm so full of different emotions right now that I'm numb. Like a zombie of a bad horror movie (which I'm a closet fan of). I'm feeling scared, in love, happy, and frustrated.
Let's break it down, shall we?
Scared - I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow for my newly discovered multiple sclerosis. Dr. Jonathan Carter is his name at the Mayo Clinic in Scottsdale. I hear he's the best of the best. Not to mention that he works in a well-renowned clinic. Obviously very popular clinic too as I attempted to make an appointment on Friday and was told that there's a waiting list AND those on the waiting list are not usually accepted as patients. But my cutey neurologist doctor (who I think was flirting with me during my visit...another story for another time), Dr. Gregory Hunter, pulled some strings and got me into the Mayo Clinic ASAP. Anyway, going back to being scared, I don't know what's going to happen. My baby is in Kentucky and wish he were with me to hold my hand.
In Love - With a certain 6'4" hottie by the name of Brian. My new love. My soulmate. He's moving out here with me in about a month so we can start the wonderful married life that most people dreamt of. What happen to John, you may be asking. Well, I ended it for various reasons. John was a great great guy, but I think he would just make a better friend than husband material. I also did not move out to Phoenix and start my career as an Accountant only to move three years later to a small town with NO job market and work at Lowe's or American Eagle while some Accountant job comes up. Wow, run on sentence. Anyway, that's that.
Happy - Thanks to Brian, my decision about John, my happy pills, and my career, I have no reason not to be happy. Oh yeah, the MS thing. Well, nothing I can do about it but fight it and not let it take over my life and kill me softly. Roberta Flack....good times. Sorry for my scatter brain tonight folks. It's all over the place.
Frustrated - Because I see two of everything. Oh look! There are now 8 lanes on the freeway. Um, no, Robert, there's only 4. Oh look! The lady at Starbuck's gave me two coffees instead of one. Um, no, there's only 1 cup in front of you, now pick it up and get your ass to work cuz you are late. I want to see one of everything again. Too frustrating!
So thanks to everybody out there in cyberworld (Hot Toddy, Abbie, Michael) and people around me for the love and support. I am soaking it all in. Y'all good people are another reason why I'm so happy, too.
I'm finally taking my mother's advice and just take days one at a time. That's what I intend to do. Thanks mom! :)
....or bad genes. I got a call from the doc yesterday and he suspects I may have multiple sclerosis. I have an appointment with a neurologist on Tuesday to confirm. Sucks ass to say the least. But I'm handling it well due to having my Brian in my life and my happy pills.
Speaking of Brian...I can't really have the name "randjforever" in my URL since, as you know R isn't with J anymore. I will have to change that soon.
Toodles all!
P.S. GO STEELERS (I'm not a sport fan at all, but I like the pretty colors the Steelers have in their helmets. Yeah, I'm gay like that.)
